I just came back from my cardiologist's clinic, and he confirmed that I am now encumbered with hypertension at the age of 33. Moreover, since my ECG result showed that my heart rate is already on the borderline, I am at high risk of acquiring a cardiovascular disease. Aggravating my chances is the fact that the latter runs in my family, my mom's side to be specific. Actually, she already has the condition, but my heart attack risk is higher since I am the one who has a type A personality and a lifestyle defined by stress.

Although I feel the need to be sad because of my condition, my mind tells me to take heart and start making the necessary changes. Funny, but if I had not gotten this ill, I would not have realized that I have a strong  desire to live. To think that I have contemplated on suicide many times over in the past, during those days I spent in hell, it makes me feel silly to realize that deep inside I am still afraid to let go of life.

God has a funny, and needless to say, almost embarrassing way to make people come to their senses. But I could not be thankful enough, for the chance He has given me. It is never too late yet to do what is right and get my life back on the proper track. There are still so many dreams I have yet to fulfill, so many tasks to accomplish, and so many people I have to reach out to. With all these things in my hands, I better get a move on it. And the changes commence right this very moment.